Last few days + Death

Wednesday:

nothing happened really, it was a bad day because my teacher told me that I have to get better in school! I told hear thou that I havent feeling so well the past few month. I think its spring depression! So that made me kind of sad and some of my friends made me really irritated. But its cool now, I don’t like to be angry!

Thursday:

This was the worst day ever! I was tired and irritated at everything and that happened! It was a huge car crash, a truck had smash a car! It was an old lady inside and I went there to help! I ask them that was standing there if they needed any help! They were all panic and in shock so they needed me! I had my head cool! I always have keep my head cool in a situation like that! But they yelled at me, “are you a doc!?” I told them I was no doc, and then “no then we do not need your help” I saw the old lady inside the car… I can´t forget her face! But I heard the ambulance so I thought mabey I can´t do anything no! They i prayed that the lady was going to make it! She didn’t, she died. And I went to shock, I was shaking all day after that, I was thinking mabey if I had done something she would be alive! -> http://www.aftonbladet.se/nyheter/article6801455.ab <- that’s the article that was made after that. And think of her family! Mabey im the one that made her family so sad! I know I couldn’t do more that I did, but… After that I went to a went to our college in town, We were talking death and if death is something we should eradicate! It was really tough to listen to that professor talking about that! When I now know how fragile life is! But it went well. I went home and cried, and slept.

Friday:

Yesterday I just had psychology and philosophy class. It went well! At philosophy class we talk about death agen, we talked about what we had lirnd on the philosophy café the day before. And i told my teacher about the car smash. She understood. After school me and some friends went shopping for a b-day gift and then we went to get some pizza! At night we went to Simon´s place and had a before party… We drank hand had a really good time! We allow went to the pub! A new rock pub has open in town and it was really cool! Manny rockers and cool ppl! I mabey did something I shouldnt have done, I made out with a friend’s friend. And he wanted me to come to hes place! I didn’t, of course! I’m not that kind of girl who sleeps with random ppl!

Saturday, Today!

Today will be fun, I’m going to a b-day party soon and then we are going to bowl with Ida´s friends. Then at night! PARTY ❤